Be careful what you wish for, you just might get it.

"Be careful what you wish for....
you just might get it"
-- Pussycat Dolls "When I grow up"

This quote is so true. I wished for so long that I could live in another country. I always wanted to go and work in another country, and do it alone. What an adventure!! I never really suspected that it would actually happen....

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It is now Sunday, August 24, 2008. I leave in less than 2 days.

I'm so terrified its not even funny. I don't think I fully believe that it is happening. I know that it is, but its still really scary.

I don't really know how to deal with it.

I'm saying goodbye to all my friends here that I love like sisters. I can't believe that I have to say goodbye for so long. It feels like I'll be back in a few short months, maybe weeks.

I can't even imagine how it will be when I say goodbye to my parents. I'm trying not to think about it right now. That whole "avoiding the issue" thing. I tend to do that sometimes. If I avoid the fact that I have to say goodbye to my parents, then I won't have to.... right? Yup, thats what I thought too... I'm crazy.

It will be harder saying goodbye to my parents than anyone. I love my parents despite all our disagreements in life.... they are my parents and they love me.

Gawd, I want to leave, but I don't. I need to leave to grow up as an adult.... but yet I want to just curl up in my childhood room and not go anywhere.

I'm very excited, but I think I'm more terrified than anything.





I had a dream last night that I was at the airport and I had about 300 suitcases.

It may SEEM like I have 300 suitcases, but really I only have 3.



Scared!!!!